With 2011 here, I finally feel like I am figuring it out. Marriage, motherhood, friendship, career... all of it. I have a good understanding of what I want out of life and what my priorities are. While I want to be a working mom, and I am so eager to begin my career in higher education, I know that Emery is 100% my priority. I start graduate school in the fall at CSULB. It is an intense program, but produces amazing student development professionals. Student Development has truly become a passion of mine. It started with having excellent advisors as a collegiate, became my favorite programs to work with while at St. Jude, and is now my life... as a CSULB employee and DDD Alumni Advisor. I know this is where my energy should be directed... I also know that I may not be able to accomplish everything in the field that I want, because it does require work to become a lifestyle. I've done that, and it just isn't for me anymore. I am all for being apart of the team, but I want to leave my work at work most days to go home to my perfect little girl. That isn't going to change, no matter how exciting the career opportunity.
Now that Emery is nearing her second birthday, I finally feel like I am getting the hang of motherhood. At least for now. I have a good idea of how I want to raise her... and how we'll get there... and more than that. I know that Jason and I can communicate together and be on the same team in raising her. That is such an amazing feeling, knowing that you have a partner in the crazy journey of parenthood.
I've also come to accept many of the relationshps and friendships in my life for what they are. I don't have this core group of 8 amazing girlfriends from HS or college... that we are all best friends and have been forever. And, it used to totally bum me out. However, I do have a number of amazing girlfriends.. and they all know eachother well enough that we can get together and have a ton of fun. I also have a great group of mommy friends that I adore. Because of our busy lives with jobs, husbands and kids, we don't see eachother that often, but it's ok. My life is moving at such a rapid rate, I know it's much more important to focus on my family than worry about my bffs. Emery is growing up so fast, I don't want to ever feel like I missed out on anything because I was worried about other relationships. Besides, Jason is truly my best friend. We have more fun laughing together than anyone else in my life... besides, I like kissing him too. It's a 2fer. =)
As I near my 27th birthday, I think I am finally coming into my own and getting comfortable in my own skin. I know who I am, what my intentions are, and that I am a good person. I enjoy volunteering my life and my time to others and feel interpersonal relationships are the key to all things successful. I love my life. Maybe for the first time in my life, I'm truly happy with where everything is headed. And that, my friends, is an amazing feeling!
And because an adorable picture of my girl is always awesome... from our latest family adventure!
xoxo
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